Date Archives May 2022

Stepping into the Four O

On the first of May, I crossed the daunting threshold of 40.  If you know me, you know I love my birthdays. Growing up, my mother made sure we felt celebrated on our day. It didn’t matter whether she had money. A cupcake, a tub of icecream and plenty love always made the day special. Gifts were extra.

But in the weeks preceding this milestone year, there wasn’t the usual countdown or excitement. To be transparent, I got sucked into the ingratitude rabbit hole when I started to think about all the things I thought I would have by now. I actually contemplated not celebrating because I couldn’t do it as big and luxurious as I hoped at “this age”. The root of that depression or funk was comparison. The Word and a couple friends slapped me straight.

The truth is, God has been convicting me about my definition of winning. His expectation is that we run the race set before us, not the one set for the next person. I grew up with the expectation that life would be a straight line; go to school, get a job, get married, buy a house and live happily ever after. Adulthood shakes that perception on the surface really quickly. And for me the events of December 2015 threw my life in such a tailspin, I still sometimes feel unbalanced by it. Deep inside, I long to get back on track to check off a list.

The question reverberating in my spirit is what if God’s plan is totally different from my own. I have been trying to unlearn my traditional views about what a successful life looks like. I remember countless prophesies that declare how much purpose has been tucked inside of me, waiting for revelation. A recent sermon series has me reflecting on Joseph. God foretold his purpose in a dream as a child and gave no clues about how it would come to be. Reading his story in a few chapters, if we don’t look deep enough, hides the fact that Joseph was 17 when he first dreamt of leadership. He was presumably almost 40 when his dream comes to pass. Between then, most of us know the story; betrayal, slavery, false imprisonment and forgotten – so not a straight line.

Yet God in His Omniscience is able to weave every part of Joseph’s story, mine and yours into a purpose filled tail of redemption, healing and victory. My goal is to be able to declare like Paul “Yet all of the accomplishments that I once took credit for, I’ve now forsaken them and I regard it all as nothing compared to the delight of experiencing Jesus Christ as my Lord! To truly know him meant letting go of everything from my past and throwing all my boasting on the garbage heap. It’s all like a pile of manure to me now, so that I may be enriched in the reality of knowing Jesus Christ and embrace him as Lord in all of his greatness.” Philippians 3:7‭-‬8 TP

In the meantime, I’m enjoying a perspective shift and embracing of a new freedom. My race is my own. I am my only competition and God truly is the Author and Finisher of my faith. What He started in me, He will finish. The path may be riddled with stuff I don’t like, painful, excruciating even but I don’t have to worry. God is fully in control.

Write Fully Yours

Lady Kavan

The Power of Belief

Monday Devotional – May 8 2022

The Power of Belief

‘Now faith brings our hopes into reality and becomes the foundation needed to acquire the things we long for. It is all the evidence required to prove what is still unseen. ‘ Hebrews 11:1


' One of the men in the crowd spoke up and said, “Teacher, I brought my son so you could heal him. He is possessed by an evil spirit that won’t let him talk. And whenever this spirit seizes him, it throws him violently to the ground. Then he foams at the mouth and grinds his teeth and becomes rigid. So I asked your disciples to cast out the evil spirit, but they couldn’t do it.” So they brought the boy. But when the evil spirit saw Jesus, it threw the child into a violent convulsion, and he fell to the ground, writhing and foaming at the mouth. The spirit often throws him into the fire or into water, trying to kill him. Have mercy on us and help us, if you can.” “What do you mean, ‘If I can’?” Jesus asked. “Anything is possible if a person believes.”  The father instantly cried out, “I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!” ' Mark 9:17-18,20,22-24


What stops us from believing that the God who created all things is able to give us abundantly above what our imaginations can fathom. It seems illogical that as believers we struggle to believe in the God who we have committed our lives to. Yet it happens quite often. This week I believe God is asking us to examine the reason behind our unbelief. If we deal with that root, the tree of unbelief will not bear fruit in our lives.

In the Mark 9 story, the father had been struggling with his son since he was a child. Years of waiting, disappointment, fear that this time the enemy might win, has likely poked holes in his belief cup. His faith cup leaked badly. He likely mustered enough belief to find Jesus and the disciples after hearing of the wonderful miracles but by the time the disciples were struggling to give him the miracle his belief cup leaked empty again.

I get it. It is hard (gross understatement), to believe after disappointment. It is a struggle to hold on to hope when what we see, the pattern, the hard evidence, the status quo says one thing but we hear the gentle whisper of the holy spirit telling us we should believe something different. I get it, I am there in some aspects of my life. Todays devotional is possibly more for me than it is for you.

God says go back, sit quietly and let me bring to your mind the disappointment that stole your hope. Let me shift your perspective so you can believe again.

I love it when the father says “I believe but” Jesus did not rebut with chiding. He simply gave him the miracle he needed. 

The truth is God will disappoint our best laid plans but He will always accomplish His purpose. What He says He will do in His time, not ours. 

Lets make that our prayer this week. “Help my unbelief”

Song of the Week:

Journal Prompt: 

What disappointment has stolen my belief?


Lord Help my unbelief. Align my thoughts and expectations with purpose. Help me pray with genuineness of heart: Lord I want this for my life but not my will let Yours be accomplished.


I believe what God says. I am the recipient of abundant life; more than my imagination can fathom. All that God has for me I will receive, in Jesus name


Have a great week!

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